Book Club

I have recently joined a book club. It used to be a meal group that I joined with a local church. The official meal group season ended in May. The girls in my group however, have decided to start a book club. I have never been in a book club before. I don't really know how it goes. I love the one I am in now, and I worry that when someday I go to another book club, I will find that it will not be as fun. We sit around and talk about life, and joke at one another's circumstances. We discuss brief thoughts and feelings about the book. There really isn't too much structure. I love it. It's so nice to have girls in your life who you don't see all of the time, but you still feel comfortable sharing with them your experiences. I like the book we are reading. It is called Ten Thousand Splendid Suns. I am not too sure what the title has to do with the book yet. But I hope it means something.
Today at book club we met at Lake Nokomis, and we had sandwiches, chips, potato salad, cookies, donuts and mojitos. We people watched and laughed at a woman who carried a stick like it was an extension of her right arm. These girls are all around my age, and its refreshing to know that there are some of us who still arent' married.
I am a little sad though, most of the girls in the group have lives to live in other places, and they will be moving soon. I will miss them alot. Sometimes I wonder why God has led me to meet these girls just to watch them leave. I won't know for a while. He could be showing me that it's not that hard to meet new friends. He also could be telling me that I don't need a man in my life, or the other way around. It's really up in the air.

On a random note, tonight I was hungry when I got home from all of my running around, and I was making turkey sandwiches for when I go to the beach tomorrow. Next to the turkey and cheese were a jar of peanut butter, and some honey. I decided to make myself a peanut butter, cheese, and honey sandwich. Now when you think about this initially, it would be gross, but it was actually quite tasty. I wouldn't offer this treat to anyone else, but it is going to be my own discovery.

Hire Me, PLEASE!

I am currently waiting to hear back from a job. I have been waiting since last Friday. I hate the whole job acquiring process. First you apply for tons of jobs. Then a few call you for an interview. You get all dressed up, practice what you are going to say, and try to psyche yourself out. You get to the interview, you answer their questions while trying to sound sincere. Then you ask them a few questions, still trying to sound sincere. Then you ask when you will hear from them, they tell you, and you get in your car and drive home. Then you wait. The waiting part after the interview is worse than the interview itself. The first day after your interview you are optimistic. The second day, some doubts creep in, but there is still reason to hope for a call back. They could be checking your references. By the third day, you know that they won't call back, at least not to ask you if you want the job. In a few weeks you will receive a letter in the mail saying that they appreciated your interest in the position, but they decided to hire one of the other candidates. Or you receive a call back, and they tell you in person. Those are the worst. You answer the phone thinking, "Oh yes, they are calling, that's a good sign." But then you get past the first three words of the conversation and realize that they are rejecting you. If you've been through job interviews like I have, you know that the process I have described is really quite common. Sometime last fall, I realized that within the last two years of my life, I have applied for at least 120 jobs, and gotten over 20 interviews, and this year I have had two already. I am an interview pro. But not the kind of pro you want to get advice from. I am the kind of pro who goes to interviews, and repeatedly bombs them. Don't ask me for advice. I will lead you down a path you don't want to take. I can give you advice on how to get an interview, but not how to get a job.

The interview I am waiting to hear back from is a school in Zimmerman. Only four people applied for the job. I was one of them obviously. The principal said not to expect a call until tomorrow, the 20th, but for some reason, waiting this long has filled my heart with doubt. Even though there are only 4 applicants, I feel like I am not the one who will be chosen. It could be because I have had to wait so long for an answer, and it's the feeling I always get after days of waiting. I felt very positive about the job in the beginning. Directly after the interview. But as time goes by, the doubts creep in and tell you all of the things that you did wrong. I know that this time for the most part I did well. But there could be someone who did even better. I always try to remain optimistic, but for the third summer in a row I am looking for a teaching job. I did not see this coming. If it were any other job, I would have given up looking a long time ago, but I love teaching. Even when I don't love it, I love it. I hate the parents, the PTA more specifically. I hate the nit-picky requirements we have to fulfill, I hate conferences, I hate plenty of it, but I love the kids. I'm not ready to give up. But I am VERY tired of trying.