Waiting Wishing Hoping

I am waiting for several things in life right now. To name a few; a job, a letter from the university I am applying to, a call from a credit consolidator, a boyfriend, a burst of energy to lose some weight/clean my room/clean the house/paint, a plan for my future, a miracle. You get the idea.
I find it hard to rest. I manage to get some sleep at night, but if there was ever a time that I didn't feel an ache of uncertainty and loneliness in my heart, I must have missed it.
When it comes to my bills, I feel like the longer they go unpaid, the worse my future is going to be. The longer my bills go unpaid, the less of a chance there is for me to get loans for graduate school.

Most of my problems right now are financial. It's weighing me DOWN! Could I just find a husband who could pay for all of my bills? Or could I get a teaching job to take responsibility for MYSELF and pay all of my bills?

AHHHHH!